goodbye.

Hello Readers,
I'm officially not posting here anymore as someone came into my life and changed my thinking. I also had dropped out of school this month so next year I'll be pursuing private O levels. Thanks for reading my blog and this is goodbye.

Why.

Why didn't you guys choose to throw me for adoption, why didn't you abort me? I'm so useless now, I don't feel like I even belong here in this family. I'm a burden. Why didn't you guys do that? Why?!

Sorry, I cut myself again. I did hesitate, but I still can't help it. I'm sorry.

24/1/15

I'm so done with my life. My life is so full with problems. My nephew dropped from the bed and has a bruise on his cheek, it's all my fault for not taking care of him well. The thought of leaving my house is suddenly becoming so strong. I'm helpless. No one can help me. I'm starting to doubt myself, whether I should even be living in this world. I'm in such deep trouble now and I'm not afraid to get scolded nor get hit. I'm probably used to it. I am a burden, a useless burden for my family. I love them so much but I'm afraid I can't stay here much longer. If I leave one day, never come and find me, I'll be okay.