19/10/14

Really feel like quitting school, like I swear, if there is one thing I don't ever want to go, it's school. Why, you might ask? It's because of the freaking schedule, it's so full of schedules, it's like working except I don't get paid! Seriously, how can the government think that a child has to go through the schedules and manage to finish homeworks and projects at the same time? Dude, we have a life, we're not robots that do homework all day. We have a family, one that needs to bond with time, but us students don't have enough time. I hate school, I hate it so much I could kill myself because of it. No joke. It really upsets me how this world have become. I know I'm young, but I think of a lot of things. I think of society, how it treats us, how it manipulates us and so on so forth. Many people kill themselves because of society, stress, everything you can think of. I'm not one of them since I'm still living, but I can tell you that I'm one of those, who is at the edge of killing themselves. You might think, oh wow a kid that wants to kill herself, she should think through about it. I have thought through about it to be honest, I've thought about the different ways I can kill myself, like several deep cuts on my wrist and let it bleed while I'm just sitting on the toilet seat, locking myself in the bathroom, and then I die with no one knowing and until I'm cold and stiff, only a cold corpse laying there. I've thought through that I might write a death letter saying that I'll always love my family

and friends and even my teachers even when I die and I hope they'll move on and forget about me as time goes by, burn me into ashes and throw them into the sea, where I can finally be free. Maybe I might be happier then, not living in this cruel world but instead dying to have freedom. Oh the irony.