2/10/14

I've had enough of everything, you said. I should be the one saying that. You have a responsibility as a parent to bring your child to the school, but no, all the responsibilities are pushed to me. Hello? I have school, I have exams. I would love to work, but I am not. You gave the home some money, you have to bring up a child, I get it. But you gave birth to it, not me. I don't really have to take care of it at all to be honest. If you have some time management, maybe you would have brought him to his school. If you can't bring up this child then why give birth to it then? Knowing that it is gonna be hard being a single mother, but you still gave birth to him. Why? If you're going to be breaking down like that, and pushing the responsibilities to me, then I quit. I rather not live at this house and have an extra weight on my back than to actually live in this home. I am the youngest, but amongst my siblings,I think I'm the most mature. I don't usually kid around, but I stay cooped up in my room. As the youngest I have to do everything, cleaning the pee and poop of my dog, helping my grandmother, taking care of a child, helping to do almost everything. I also have studies, my own lovely hobbies that I can't even do, now that exams have started. I jut can't wait till I'm working so that I can move out of the house, live with my friends or even better, migrate to Australia or Korea. I have stress as well, even if I don't show it. Don't think that you're the only one that has stress, I'm human too. Being the youngest really sucks for me, I despise it. If I made my sister cry, I'm at fault. Then if I cry? You don't even know. What life is for me, is just a world of challenging problems, situations that we have to solve. It's not easy, I know. Which is why I think I'm slowly falling apart. Falling apart is easier than solving problems, which is why I'm doing it now. But falling apart is harder to get back up, so I'm just basically in a lot of shit now. Things don't really go with my favour, I just get thrown every so often. Friends leave me, it's a natural cycle. I' not famous, like some of my friends are, I'm just an ordinary human being that actually being alive or not, doesn't really matter to anyone. Even if I die, everyone will just move on. 

I went to the polyclinic last Friday because of my dizziness and fatigue. The doctor told me that either I have to take a blood test, or no medication. Of course I took the no medication one, because I'm scared of the blood test and the results. Imagine I have anemia like I've always expected I have, wow wouldn't I be a psychic? Well, maybe if I have anemia would be better right? If I have a severe one, I can actually die without any regrets. I can actually die without going to hell from suicide, isn't that great? "Complications from anemia can range from loss of productivity due to weakness and fatigue to coma and death." -umm.edu/health/medical/altmed/condition/anemia
Then I would die happily, yes? Hm, enough writing for now, need to get going for school. Goodbye.

Not getting enough oxygen can result in a lack of energy, shortness of breath, trouble concentrating, pale skin, fast heartbeat and depression. Depression may not be a direct result of anemia, but rather an indirect result due to how tired and worn out the person may feel.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/facts_5628030_anemia-cause-depression_.html

Not getting enough oxygen can result in a lack of energy, shortness of breath, trouble concentrating, pale skin, fast heartbeat and depression. Depression may not be a direct result of anemia, but rather an indirect result due to how tired and worn out the person may feel.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/facts_5628030_anemia-cause-depression_.html

Not getting enough oxygen can result in a lack of energy, shortness of breath, trouble concentrating, pale skin, fast heartbeat and depression. Depression may not be a direct result of anemia, but rather an indirect result due to how tired and worn out the person may feel.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/facts_5628030_anemia-cause-depression_.html

Not getting enough oxygen can result in a lack of energy, shortness of breath, trouble concentrating, pale skin, fast heartbeat and depression. Depression may not be a direct result of anemia, but rather an indirect result due to how tired and worn out the person may feel.

Read more : http://www.ehow.com/facts_5628030_anemia-cause-depression_.html